"

Think of the firefly,
beating its bright pulse.
Think of the firefly
smashed against a child’s arm
because someone promised it would make his wrist glow
and he wanted to keep the light forever.

Think of the first love you ever destroyed
because you’d never known anything like it before,
like seeing your own heartbeat outside of yourself,
a flickering, luminescent miracle -
you wanted to crush it to your skin.

Think of the luster inside you,
that spark that blazed the first time
you bared yourself to another human being, said:
Call me brilliant as the sun,
or ugly as a naked bulb,
I am dangling before you
so you might not stumble.

"
April Ranger, “The Light Inside Us”  (via commovente)

Hello Void

that night we met in a maze.

sweat, stale smoke,

sticky floor.

two people. one year ago.

alley, moonlight, 

gust of wind.

organs fused, bursting,

passion plunged

in an ice bath, drowned, stiff.

"Beautiful, sobbing
high-geared fucking
and then to lie silently
like deer tracks in the
freshly-fallen snow beside
the one you love.
That’s all."
Richard Brautigan, Deer Tracks

Sutured

Meeting someone. 

Dark corner, bad

bar food and one, two 

many cocktails numb.

But loneliness, that seared

branded lover. Silent

companion beside the table

patient. Candle flicker, pause.

Two people, one leans in

the other away, to the left

where her shadow friend

crouched. Maybe.

If the haunt is voiced, 

the wound will be sutured, stitched

healing process underway. Maybe.

Talking about a broken heart doesn’t mend.

Float

I will encourage you

to lay down on sheets.

They’re clean,

mostly, maybe

a day or two wrinkled.

But they smell of me.

Peonies, spring warmth

when earth blooms.

I’ll turn the lamp off, click.

Silence floats over our limbs.

My fingers trail your arm,

twist hairs, invite your touch.

If you don’t respond, I’ll stop.

My hand drift away.

Make my breath shallow,

match yours.

Cut Deep

Cornered, eyes half

closed, sunlight.

Hands pressed

against skin, abdonem

taut, slack. Searching

shadows, she squints

glimpse of crows

flight across horizon line.

Their dark shapes bleed

into trees. Sky turns violet

Than royal, black,

barren. Curled

like a cat swallowed whole in her belly.

Covered, quilt of  moonlight.

"

Do you have stars
in your mouth?

she asks
and I laugh,
she’s never tasted
winter like I have,
midnights that linger
for days. Yes,
I tell her. Come see.

Will there be breath?
For a while, I whisper
and blow on her hands,
but you will sing
and the aurora lights
will walk across the ice.

She lets me
put my hands on her.
Will I die? her hair
like snow.
Yes. I tell her.
Every time.

"
"Of everything I have seen,
it’s you I want to go on seeing:
of everything I’ve touched,
it’s your flesh I want to go on touching.
I love your orange laughter.
I am moved by the sight of you sleeping."
Pablo Neruda 
"it’s a long long road
it’s a big big world
we are wise wise women
we are giggling girls
we both carry a smile
to show when we’re pleased
we both carry a switchblade
in our sleeves."
Ani DiFranco - If He Tries Anything (via nomnomnamaste)

Hello Qoute,

I keep going back to these words.

They are becoming

silent mantra

flowing stream

cut banks

coursing, tumbling.

Something sad, sweet,

so beautiful.

My heart beats

chest rises

I know the words.

Hello Maine,

I’ve always wanted to explore your shores.

*****

I need a small adventure.

Find some private spot, feel

as though no one before traversed the hidden

trail, gazed at the same tree grove.

To be still, listen to an extraordinary

silence. Or the singular crash

0f wave against obsidian, push pull of sand, tide

disappearing into the ocean oblivion.

Wind whip blades of grass, skirt, strands of hair.

Being present, a witness within nature, an adventure.

"

This morning the green fists of the peonies are getting ready
to break my heart
as the sun rises,
as the sun strokes them with his old, buttery fingers

and they open —-
pools of lace,
white and pink —-
and all day the black ants climb over them,

boring their deep and mysterious holes
into the curls,
craving the sweet sap,
taking it away

to their dark, underground cities —-
and all day
under the shifty wind,
as in a dance to the great wedding,

the flowers bend their bright bodies,
and tip their fragrance to the air,
and rise,
their red stems holding

all that dampness and recklessness
gladly and lightly,
and there it is again —-
beauty the brave, the exemplary,

blazing open.
Do you love this world?
Do you cherish your humble and silky life?
Do you adore the green grass, with its terror beneath?

Do you also hurry, half-dressed and barefoot, into the garden,
and softly,
and exclaiming of their dearness,
fill your arms with the white and pink flowers,

with their honeyed heaviness, their lush trembling,
their eagerness
to be wild and perfect for a moment, before they are
nothing, forever?

"

Mary Oliver

Hello lovely peony poem.